Feeling a little sad today as I finally posted the last
chapter to my epic, ‘Best friends share everything.’ It ended up being a solid
224,100 words on fanfiction
or on JBNP if you are a member there.
The story finished up at the High School ten year reunion. I got to
thinking about school and how that whole experience was for me.
I wasn’t a popular girl in High School. I didn’t date; I had
braces, and I hung with the odd kids. I have heard so many people that I admire
as adults, say something very similar about their youth. So sometimes I wonder.
What happened to the people I thought at the time were perfect? The ones who
were on the school council? Represented the school at sport? Who were the king
and queen at the prom, or whatever was your country’s equivalent. I wasn’t
their friend then, and I’m not now, so I don’t know. They won’t be tracking me down on Facebook for instance. I had Quil
say in the story that you kept in touch with the people you wanted to from
school. Clearly I ran, as fast and as far away as I could. I don’t keep in
touch with any of them.
Every time I hear someone I admire for their free thinking
or their imagination, talk about their
youth, they weren’t one of the popular people at High School either. Even Joe
Manganiello did a series of vids for the ‘it gets better’ campaign about how he
was bullied as a kid. I know right? Look at him now.
Lucienne Diver is a book agent and author who writes a
series called ‘Vamped’. I heard an interview with her recently. She said she
wrote a story about the queen bee of the school getting turned into a vampire
and having to dig herself out of her own grave. This upsets her, mostly because
she ruins her manicure and her hair and she can no longer see her reflection to
fix it. She laughed about how annoying the character was and how she
was initially written as a reaction to the beautiful people. Her character has
grown on her now, clearly. If you see her photo, I am surprised she wasn't in
the beautiful people category, but hey, people change as they grow up, too. (Clearly
Joe did.)
I worry about people who think the pinnacle of their
existence was High School. Who look back and think that that was the best they will ever be. I suspect Stephenie Meyer may
fit in this category. Her obsession with youth and teenage vampires is evidence
of that. Her character, Bella Swan nearly has a panic attack about turning
eighteen! Meyer had to change vampire canon; make them day walkers, just so
that they could go to High School and meet their lamb. Bella didn’t meet Edward
in a graveyard at midnight… oh no… that would be icky. So it’s the safe, well
lit world of the High School cafeteria for their first meeting.
Personally, if I was an eternal being, High School would be
the last thing I would do with my
endless time. And I certainly wouldn’t do it more than once, no matter how old
I was when I was turned. If I was a fourteen year old vampire, I’d just argue that
I looked young for my age.
If you think High School was the best you ever were, then
you are in for a world of disappointment. Real life isn't like that. That’s
clearly a good thing for the non-popular kids.
We didn’t fit in then, but we have learnt to accept
ourselves. We have lost weight, our skin cleared up, we got our braces off, we learnt to cut our hair
over our protruding ears or we found other people who think the way we do. Even
if we do none of those things, it does
get better… if we find that acceptance and peace within ourselves. After all,
that’s who we live with. We can always leave High School.
Sorry you're feeling sad. :(
ReplyDeleteThanks honey. I could distract myself with some housework? You know that stuff I have been avoiding?
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