Kiss me out of desire

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banner made by don'tcallmeleelee

What is it about me and rare pairings?

The ‘Paws and art 3.0’ contest had a huge number of banner entries. Eighty of them!

I subscribe to their page on an rss feed, and I kept a copy of the page so that I could access it offline and chose a Seth/Bella banner. I wrote my story and it wasn’t until after I had entered it that I realised that that banner had been adopted and removed from the competition entries. Cue panic attack. Silly me for not checking first! I wanted to support the contest; previously I have won it in 2011 and come third in 2012, so I chose a different banner. There wasn’t another Seth banner option and the point of the contest is to write to the existing banners.

I literally wrote a one shot in an hour or so and sent it in. I knew it wasn’t my best work, but I didn’t have time to do anything else as I was in the middle of nanowrimo and there were very few entries already posted. I was worried about the contest.

So I chose the banner above and wrote ‘Kiss me out of desire’. The title is a line from the Jeff Buckley song ‘Last goodbye’. The rest of the line is ‘kiss me out of desire babe, and not consolation.’ I love that line.

It is posted here at fanfiction and here at fictionpad.

Summary: Leah's deep and abiding anger attracts the attention of someone who feels emotions. Someone who is tired of control, and strict diets and suppressed libidos.

It has over fifty reviews most of which complain that they need more and I can’t leave it where I did. Bwahaha. My eternal curse!

It certainly has places that it could go but it would be a rare outing for me; I have never written fanfiction with a Cullen main character before, but I like Jasper’s darkness.

Embraced

Paws & Art held their second banner one shot competition. There were about 15 anon entries; read them all on their site here: Paws & Art 2.0

I won it last year with ‘Rumour has it’ but this year I made an unusual choice for me. There were 65 banners to choose from with lots of cute wolf boys paired up and even a couple with three characters. So you would think any of those would work for me with a history of writing wolf boy slash and threesomes. But, I chose this banner. In a neat idea, each entrant ‘won’ an individual copy of their chosen banner.

banner # 65, artist dontcallmeLeeLee

I like challenging myself and writing different pairings; especially in one-shots, where you can get away with a lot of things because they need to be short. To me, Edward looked beseeching and Leah suspicious. What was he asking her? And the plot bunnies were off.

I have often argued that the ending of Breaking Dawn gave Bella everything she wanted and didn’t really deal with how those things affected others. Bella loved Jake so Bella got Jake in her life; imprinted on her daughter so that he can never leave. Ugh. I shudder just to think about it. A vampire mated to a wolf? The tribal alpha and their next chief living with vampires? His sworn enemies? She would probably be a neuter like most hybrids and never be able to have children. The end of the Black family line? None of it made sense to me given the book build-up to that point.

So, what if Renesmee imprinted on a different wolf? What if she did it for a reason?

Embraced BD, AU, Leah/Edward

Trigger warning: death of a character in childbirth.

(man... what is it with me killing Bella this month? I’ve done it twice. giggle)

It ended up getting equal third place and I was pretty happy with that. Leah is not a popular character and pairing her with Edward was a risk, as well. Especially in a wolf centric competition. And it was anonymous, so no-one knew which story was mine. I love that!